Days pass with the idea that the close is only temporary.
Hope brings the language of a different landing beyond what’s been the same.
Circling the layers of our intimacy and the unscripted possibilities in the foreign.
One side with known weather and the other implying climate that can’t be verified.
The here, the there and some over there talking about leaving the old for the new.
Working to find footing while looking forward and glancing back.
Slowly moving closer towards the uncomfortable from places that are uncomfortable.
While anxiety carves out space within the hope of this and that.
And pending whispers that it might just be hiding some thorns too.
Because clips don’t always inform and we don’t always write down what we should anyways.
Like where strength stays dancing beyond our awareness.
Or where durability isn’t our best tune but it still plays specifically for us.
Or where resilience stands unnoticed whenever storms swirl and emotions flow.
Or where steady looks unsteady in the weeds that grow wildly.
Or where not sure is a slow crawl and hardiness has the same moves.
And even where riding with fear will never be a waste of time for support.
Because a shoddy documentary on a garden and its gardener is still a story about chips and scratches that have been navigated.
Is familiar going together with hard and unfamiliar walking hand and hand with it too.
Is memories that don’t care how we are and us caring about memories.
Is blue as the magic in the sky and feelings that never seem to run out of blue paint.
Is loneliness in crowded rooms and crowds that can’t solve loneliness either.
And is happiness that meets us and happiness that calls for us to meet it.
Moments fade into the routine of familiarity, but while that intimacy might have some answers, what’s big needs what’s little too.
Days pass with the idea that the close is only temporary because change is looking out for the blind spots up and down our way.
Hope brings the language of a different landing beyond what’s been the same, but that never meant that love couldn’t be found in what we have stayed in.
Our homes hold the memories that they do, but for the journeys, those memories give the illusion that strength wasn’t also standing in the room.
Which is why a particular word supports us in the heaviness of the familiar, the unfamiliar and the confusion of the spaces in between.
Have the best day, POSSIBLE for you. Love Always, Heavell
The voices worrying about what needs to be handled.
And for the not all right that comes from unstoppable forces coming to play.
Leaving us to underestimate our ability to communicate differently.
To show up for the anguish in the mirror.
To walk landscapes where blooms are still dormant seeds in the ground.
With that kind of blue giving and taking despite hope.
Isolating instead of capturing more of the view.
And normalizing rhetoric that was never meant to stay.
What we’ve experienced isn’t for keeps.
How silhouettes have been held isn’t for keeps.
Where feelings of helplessness have remained isn’t for keeps.
As whispers working to introduce something different.
Rough drafts not waiting to get it right to touch the care.
Blue spinning the block to rest in softer hands.
And sorrow recognizing songs but not at the expense of love.
For things to quietly get some power from good enough.
Walls struggling with arrangements to take on more moments of help.
Phases of shaking to be seen as freestyling dance moves.
And tears rolling down to take their time crossing the borders of labels.
Allowing the benefit of being in between the mixed messaging.
To view more than the whatnots normally stared at in the mirror.
And to continue on since seeds don’t always end up playing the part of flowers.
We can’t count the times we were able to just forget life but we do remember why we have used a lot of blues on our canvases.
We can’t count the hours we’ve looked up at a perfectly blue sky but we do remember how many moments we have tried to figure a way out while looking up.
We can’t count the wanted things that we took by the hand but we do remember all the things that follow along making us blue.
And we can’t count the times that we have accepted us as we are, but we do remember all the ones where blue has called red by its storyline name.
But while to keep or not to keep is a messy game, blue quietly connects with us as a reminder that it’s made up of varying hues and so are we.
Have the best day, POSSIBLE for you. Love Always, Heavell
Because no matter where every storyline has been or goes, there’s comfortableness within the collection of that foliage.
There’s acceptance within the terms.
There’s shelter within the tones.
There’s familiarity within the steps.
But then the stories are thin without the moments that make knowing right where the perfect blue belongs personal.
Without the spotty employment history of love and where anger finishes strong.
Without the weather that creates hope and runs through the count of sunny days.
Without the stability written in by silence and the fear that alters it into instability.
Without the sound of a whispered song and the echoes of it sung loudly on some other day.
Without the stained paintbrushes that still portray life without touching a canvas.
Without the sorrow that releases tears more frequently than laughter does.
And without the freestyling of weeds that cast shadows and pauses.
Because fitting into a choir doesn’t mean personal pitches don’t have to be practiced.
Looking like other stories doesn’t stop unseen details from rolling around homes.
The sanctuary of a group doesn’t prevent the rain from coming in sideways anyways.
And together doesn’t untangle thoughts of loneliness.
So notice how the community gets agreement from the gardener but the garden gets discord.
Watch how the hardest thing isn’t the details but that the writer is still sitting in the gossip missing the love part.
Observe how we want blue skies but not the slowdown that every artist and artwork needs.
And see how there are songs to carry feels but those feels are why the music sounds right.
Because with and without fitting in and details, connection can and does create conflict and conflict can and does create connection.
And as we pull up yet another duality, remember; a particular word doesn’t pause just because we know our face in why our perfect blues belong where they do.
Have the best day, POSSIBLE for you. Love Always, Heavell
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