Something will always grow from the things that happen and what we think, feel and do because of them. Where any of it goes or what it becomes or how long it stays that way is within our abilities to decide and to change in any given moment. The things that have been are always going to be with us so we might as well use them to lift ourselves up rather than be defined by them in ways that continue to hurt. If the words that you say to yourself are a reflection of your hell, then a different truth of those moments or parts is that they also hold beauty. A messy room, substance abuse, impossible and being scared all give the appearance of flaws or weakness and yet strength does not grow from the easy or simple things in life. It can also be said that having strength does not mean there is an absence of fear nor a lack of flaws. The fact and the opinion then is that it is entirely possible for weeds to be transformed into flowers and for dreaded “f” moments, at least in part, to become the stories that make us laugh until our stomachs hurt. When you look in the mirror to see yourself and your kind of life, for everything that you don’t want or even hate, also find what you can accept or even love there. In other words be I’m possible even in the most impossible moments by perceiving of the small things that can help you to be all right in the not all right times. What we breathe in about ourselves or what has been can become so loud on the inside that it takes over the rest of us. Essentially a part or some parts can evolve into a monster that occupies the whole and then takes the remaining pieces, basically victims, on it’s roller coaster ride. No one aspires to be messy, an addict, flawed or to hold the hand of fear but it’s how you came along and a crucial part of the creation of strength. For a moment or just a day, say what needs to be said to yourself and to others. But also be kind because you cannot rise if you do not fall, be brave if you are not scared at some point nor be all that you actually are if you only feed the hell. This is how you came along as the definer of beauty as well as what the weight of the world feels like at your essential position on the circle. Your pain, conflict and hell may be the real truth for you but it is also a green truth in that what grows there and for how long it stays has always been what you facilitate not what others decide for you. After all, you came along as the perfect person to go through in this so very heavell life for you so don’t consent to their view of you; especially if it’s limited. Unless of course you decide to continue to go that way in which case tomorrow might be the place to turn around or wherever that given moment occurs. Oh hell, just grab some tissues and get comfortably uncomfortable because walking on flowers and carrying weeds is exactly the kind of story that sometime warriors live for and we feel in the place that needs us most.