Both the words light and darkness have and hold parts of what can be found on the inside as well as the outside of us. Depending on the place that you are at, the presence of a lack of light can either be seen as the beginning of a rise or a repeating of what has already been. Another pair of words that have a profound effect on us are silence and voice. They are defined differently and yet they can also be similar. One is the lack of sound and the other one is having noise but both imply an ability to control the hell; just like those tricky substances. In-between the dictionary descriptions of those terms, though, are the unseen details that hold so much more. Each of those expressions has a personal emotional definition that connects our mind and heart through the moments that we have chained to them. Which ones do you believe hold heaven and which ones are hell? Now turn around and find a different truth for each. After all, hell will always find a way to be illuminated and the sound of silence has the ability to be louder than all the noise in the place that needs you most. How have you been using these words in your so very heavell life? Have you been aware that you have been feeding the hell by having a limited view of them? This is you and this is me. Sometimes we have that feeling that we are in the darkness when we are actually in the light. At other times we think we are being silent when the strongest part of us is in fact vocalizing itself in ways that can’t be heard but can be viewed. To be certain of where you are at though, you will need to look in the mirror to see the worth of things in the words that you say. That nothing that came from nowhere has always been something in the heart of the beholder; also known as you. If a word can hold a different truth for you as well as for others, then it is possible for hell to hold beauty, “f” moments to be fabulous and for weeds to be more important than flowers. The worth of things has always been found on the inside where what you do with all of it determines what kind of day it will be. Here’s to the hope that if you cry, the worth of things will hold both the light and the dark of pain and laughter. If you need to do this again and again, it’s all right. Just make sure that each time you fall, your view gets bigger and not heavier on the way down and in the process of going up. I am going to wait right here while you figure out the worth of things because while we may be similar, the details make each of us a different truth.

There can be a comfortableness found in the consistency of our thoughts and feelings even in what appears to be the darkness, silence or pain. That nothing that came from nowhere that has always been something holds a certain sense of safety through the repeating of our cycles; especially in feeding the hell. The fact and the opinion is that changing any of it has never ever been simple but just like you, it holds the possibility of so much more than what can easily be seen. After all, if you look at what it has taken for you to fall, it was never just a word, a moment or a thought but the worth of a lot of things that came together on the inside. What steps can you take in getting to know the light and the absence of light in you? What if in this perfect moment you were to then turn around and find a different truth for what you have always viewed in that familiar way? The worth of things is timeless and as they add up, they have the ability to transform dreams into fallen angels, change the power of anything and illuminate the expression of personal emotional definitions. Altering the way in which you have been going requires you to consent to understanding why you have been in that place. Going into the darkness means bringing it all into the light, through your choice not hell’s, in order to change the yesterdays into what has yet to be in the tomorrows. This is me and this is you. Addiction is a hell like no other but then sometime warriors don’t live in heaven or the appearance of it. They fall, they are fearful and they are brave one moment at a time. The beauty of you can be found in expanding your view to see that the weeds are as important as the flowers; a different truth. They are the creators of the perfect people to find understanding while recognizing that we are together and not together. If you are going to have a nightmare kind of day, then turn around because you’ve already done that again and again while going in that direction. After all, silence is not always the absence of noise, light can be a scarier place than the darkness and being lost can be the best place to find your way on your trail. Oh hell, those tricky substances and words had you thinking and feeling a different truth but as you are, you hold all the details to go through if you listen to the words that you say. Here’s to being the “f” moment makers who have always had the superpower to alter the hell or the heaven in any given moment. But whatever you do on the inside of you, the worth of things and those boxes of tissues are a part of stepping, falling and walking in circles as the heavell keeper of your life; whether an addict or not.