Over and over the things that carry the weight of the world for us find their way into every part of us; becoming an epidemic on the inside. Whether and addict or not, change can occur in our parts from any given moment; regardless of the size, strength or if felt or seen by others or not. The misery, also known as the pain or the hell, feeds our fear by saying the things that we listen to as the real truth. Yesterday, today and even tomorrow will all be the same if we avoid dealing with any of it; by using people, places, things, time or substances. Including the anything and the everything, while going through in your matter of time, is the only way to step inside to the place where you need to be. Fear, seen and felt as a part of the hell, is actually the friend of courage. Without it you would never ever need the strength of a sometime warrior nor realize that there are things that require understanding; especially to transfer hurt into an ability to step forward. What is in the words that you say to yourself; as well as to others? How do they feel in your heart? Between those elements, is where you will find your strengths and your weaknesses. Look in the mirror and tell me what you see before you. Now step inside where the lies and the pain have a hold of you; and look around at what else can be found there. The power of the hell is an inside position despite the things that occur on the exterior. Be loud and be quiet while you breathe in the beauty of your superpower; the ability to accept, change, love and hate but never to deny you. Just step inside the perfect person to bring hell but who is also the beholder of heaven. What will you do now; whether an addict or not? The art of living in heavell is in the elements of being a perfectly, irritatingly, messy person. You are yours to have and hold; to just be a beautiful and painful work in process.
If the weight of the world is more than you can hold on the inside, what are you doing with it on the outside; whether an addict or not? Those similarities that can be found with others can be perceived as wholeness; everybody is doing, feeling or knows it. Being seen and heard on the exterior can also bring a sense of strength; there you are. But the real truth is that if we continue to walk in circles in a place where we feel connected, our own journey can be delayed. When we are only being on the outside of ourselves we are, at times, feeding the very hell we want to leave in the yesterdays. There are parents, regardless of any similarities or differences, that know how it feels to have lost a dream. They, unfortunately and thankfully, can see me. It is an easy place for me to just be in. When I stay there too long though, I can feel that pain dispersing into all of me; becoming an epidemic in parts that it doesn’t even belong in. It is such an undesirable and overwhelming emotional state of being. That place, even for the strongest, then move us towards avoiding it or finding agreement and or relief; whether an addict or not. Can you step inside and love what has been defining you there; accept and be kind to what hurts? This is you finding your way and this is also me. We will do this together on the outside but more importantly we each need to go through on the inside; piece by piece. Take the hand of fear and that of courage and step inside to the person who has the power to understand you; to always be there for you. Listen, as you are, it’s all right to not be all right in this so very heavell life. Just don’t stay there for too long otherwise it will all feel the same; making it hard to remember that you have always been so much more. After all, it matters what you do with the hell that lives in you; especially the pieces hidden in the shadows.
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