Which of these is mostly impossible for you: fear from what has already been in the yesterdays or fearless of what has yet to be in the tomorrows? Does it matter that the first is now a comfortably uncomfortable painful known where as the other is an unfamiliar place that holds the possibility of understanding and change? How about that together and not together position where being scared and courageous occurs at the same time? Or is it even possible for those with “f” moments, the dreaded flawed ones, to be courageous? What you think and feel in response to those questions is just some of the details of your story that have the ability to turn you around while you are stepping towards the future or to continue to lift you up. Is it, then, doable to love and hate something or someone at the same time or is that mostly impossible? How about as it pertains to you and what you experience on the inside of yourself? When we find a different definition, especially for what looks and feels like hell, we can locate the balance between what hurts and how it can become a superpower in our matter of time. The things that have already been will matter however if you continue to use them to view yourself and a so heavell life in the same way in the tomorrows. This is you and this is me whether an addict or not. Some, individuals and parts, as well as yourself, will love you while hating the behaviors that are not in your best interest. Some will be fearful and courageous in any given moment while others will turn around to what is familiar even when it has been painful. What is in your words that you say to yourself will lead you to believe that you are mostly impossible or mostly I’m possible. Welcome to heavell where you hold the key to what kind of day it’s going to be. Weeds will always be a part of life but rather than feeling as if they define you, pick them as you do your flowers. Just keep breathing while experiencing the all that you are even when the elements are not always all right or ideal. I am going to wait right here with those tissues just in case you feel like it’s impossible to cry and laugh at the same time or hate parts while still loving the whole. As you are, you are possible.

No matter what position we may be in, whether an addict or not, it is possible for us to find understanding for ourselves and others through our similarities and our differences. Essentially, the look of fear, grief, loss, courage, weakness, tears, superpowers, laughter, strength, sometime warriors and the BLAH can be found wherever anyone of us are. September is the month of Suicide Awareness. This Saturday, September 4th, 2020, the family of Tyler Barone is holding a candlelight memorial called “Twilight For Tyler” in honor of him and others. Please take a moment, between 6:30 and 7:30pm, on that day to light a candle for Tyler, others who are or have been lost and for yourself as we light the way from impossible to I’m possible in the ending of the stigma of mental health issues, suicide and addiction all at the same time. Together and not together we are the sometime warriors in a life that is so very heavell who have the ability to change the power of hell. If you or anyone you know is in need of support, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255 or NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness, is 1-800-950-6264. After all, the look of this kind of life may feel impossible at times but with help, I’m possible can be found in the next or the next or even the next moment. Every dream matters whether here or not. Love always, Heavell.