Be-Loved #160

In order to encounter today in a different way than was experienced in the yesterdays, change begins with understanding what you have lost as well as found and then that there is still so much more to locate; the view beyond what is just in front. For instance, we know that pain can easily be generated, is hard to let go of and is never ever easy to carry. Another aspect is the perception and resulting feelings of the things that cannot be recovered or replaced because of it. Those feelings of loss tend to effect our walking in circles just as much as the actual moments of pain do. Strength on the other hand can be hard to find, at times is fleeting but when possible, can carry the weight of the world with little effort. But it is also not without loss as strength, created from the process of going through pain, is the letting go of what has been familiar and stepping into the unknown. Getting comfortably uncomfortable is about accepting the parts that hold the things that you don’t like or even hate and knowing it’s all right to feel that way rather than being the definition of being flawed or weak. The fact and the opinion is that the more we hide or deny those moments and things the stronger they become on the inside of us because strength really isn’t about who we are or are not but rather what we believe and then feed. For your matter of time this is how you came along but how long you stay there or what you do with it is within your power to change in any given moment. When it comes to pain and strength, which one is be-loved and which one needs to be be-loved by you? How about now that you are aware that pain is the creator of strength but that it also holds an influence that depends on what you believe you have lost and found to continue to grow? Because words hold different emotional definitions for each of us, the value of yours cannot be found outside of yourself; especially through the use of people, places, things or substances. After all, if it were that simple, all it would take to change this would be for me to tell you to not feel the way you do or to behave as you have. The real truth is that you should probably be-loved by you in such a way that when you fall, you know it is a part of the process of becoming so much more. That it is all right to not to be all right but just don’t stay in that place for far too long by becoming what can be felt there. The hope for today then is that you will laugh and cry about yesterday while taking the hand of fear and that of courage in order to be your own beloved, also known as the beauty, in the tomorrows. Just ask yourself what you can say that will make the place that needs you most feel beloved and then say it as many times as you need to hear it. I am just going to wait right here while you locate that different truth about feeding the strength of your pain or using it in order to nourish what lifts you up. Got heavell? You certainly do because this is the kind of life where sometime warriors turn weeds into superpowers and the weight of the world into the be-loved of flowers just by simply turning around to see the view beyond what is just in front.