What can you say about how you carry the word hope in the place that needs you most? Just as other words are determined by our individual experiences, what lives there is a reflection of the particulars that have been felt and then defined by each of our hearts in our kind of life. It’s existence comes from what has been in the yesterdays while also always holding the possibility that the tomorrows will become what we dream of. What’s not easily seen, though, is that often that similar and different feeling is actually carrying the weight of the world rather than just being a wish for change. It’s presence is familiar and comfortable with our being all right as well as the depth of our pain or even when we are feeling fear and anger. Depending on where we go with it on the inside, a desire can hold a different truth in any given moment. It is a term that has always held so much more and if you look closely, you will also see that at times it can be easily lost, may be difficult to find and we can also stay in that place for far longer than we are meant to. Hope is just one of our many feelings that has the ability to lift us up or to cause us to fall through the small things that appear to come from nowhere but have actually always been something in the place that needs us most. After all, as an emotion, it is expressed by the story that lives in the heart rather than the descriptive words that the mind uses to explain it. At times, during the years of Ryan’s drug use, I was the beholder of hope because there’s a love that continued on despite his having lost his belief. In other moments, when my fear of the yesterdays was strongest for me, he would lean in to hear what that held for me and I was able to remember to breathe through his words and actions. So what does just that single term express for you as it pertains to what you want for you and then for others? Now turn around and look closely to see the details that others desire for themselves and then for you. The strongest and the weakest that we are is found in our words and the particulars that make them our own personal emotional definitions. In other terms, the right expressions help us to hear and see or not the value in everything that has been, even those tough and painful lessons. Breathing in brave, sometime warriors and hope may appear to be necessary to face what can be found on the outside of ourselves but more often than not those are the small things that are needed to look in the mirror to believe in and to understand ourselves. Look closely at your own words so that you may raise a little hell by keeping hope as just the place to experience the feeling of possibilities while you actually step, fall, have all sorts of “f” moments and find your way along the trail as the perfect person to do so. I am going to wait right here for you in my weeds as you illuminate what needs to be found in the yesterdays so that tomorrow holds just a little more of you in I’m possible even when things are not all right. Oh hell, every dream matters whether here or not so lets carry them with us wherever we go in this so very heavell life.

On Tuesday, December 29th, we will be sharing our third podcast. We hope that you have the best day possible for you. Be kind to you especially in the moments that need you to be. Love Always, Heavell.